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Season 2 : Trey ... bagian 8

Bagian 8
by Garykoolames

continued...
after the breakfast....
gua semakin yakin, jestine is the rite one...
everyone is all happy
jestine can blend in
JEstine is happy, and laughing....

marriage is not an individual matter, its a package deal, that involve family and friends...
they all seem to like jestine....

gua waktu seminar....nggak konsen sama sekali..
gua cuma mikirin...gua gimana ngomong sama deric

Siap seminar, gua call deric...
Me: deric , lagi dimana?
Deric: lagi diapartemen, why? miss me already
Me: gua kesana yah
Deric: kalau elo cuma mau bilang, elo nggak mau ketemu gua lagi, dont bother come
Me: i am coming now !

Akhirnya gua sampe ke tempat deric...
he picked me up from the lobby
deric: i know your decision...what more to talk about?
Me: can we talk inside?
Sampe didalam apartemen
I can not help it, i hug himmmmmmmmm
I hug deric....
My heart is beating so fast.....
i am crying like hell

Deric: what;s wrong?
Me: deric, it will be the last time, we'll see each other
Deric: cann;t we be friends?
Me: i dont think so
Deric: elo dulu sama jeff, bisa tinggal sama lagi ? one apartement
Deric: so unfair yah, you treated jeff and me differently
Me: i no longer had feeling for jeff, with you, i love you so much
deric: it;s your problem
Deric: because you have feeling for me, why do you have to punish me that we can not be friends?
Me: deric..please
aku genggam tanggan deric
deric memeluk gua
i kiss deric hands
i put my head on his chest
i am listening to his heart beat...
i want to remember his rhythm...
deg...deg...deg...deg....
I want to remember his smell
I want to remember his warm
i close my eyes...
Me: deric..dont worry, you will find someone new
Deric: i will find someone new of course, but i doubt i can find love like this.
Me: we are just doing the right thing to do
Deric: the right thing to do is to be honest with our feeling
Me: elo ngerti kan kenapa gua memilih jalan ini?
Deric: i dont understand....
Me: deric...it;s the most logical thing to do
Me: we only met twice, and suddenly i choose you, IT;s impossible and not logical
Deric: go away then!
Deric: you just make me mad...!
Deric: you kissed me, you hugged me, you told me that you love me, but you didnt choose me
Deric: you just wanted to see me miserable
me: i am sorry if i hurted you...

me: i better go ..now
Me: deric, just want you to know, from all the men in my life, you are the one i loved most...
deric: just go ...
Me: bye deric....
deric: i dont want to see you anymore in my life....i swear!

that was the last time that i saw and heard from deric....
i erased all the memories of him
focusing my life with jestine...
helping him with with pupuk organic
organising the pemulung...take them for outings....

slowly the business's thriving....
pupuk organicnya makin banyak di kenal orang...
and the pupuk become more specialised...
pupuk untuk kelapa sawit, pupuk untuk sengon, pupuk untuk cabe....

and money start to come...
and i realised...money can make you excited but can not bring happiness....
jestine becoming more more busy....
he is rich, he hasnt change in side, but the casing is changed..branded clothes

which is for me ironic...
pemulung disatu sisi, and designer clothes disatu sisi
he is still sweet and nice,...but no longer humble
aku percaya sekarang, lingkungan pergaulan berperan penting membentuk sikap seseorang
all these business man...promising volume...profit
expansion....

once i said to jestine: jestine, it;s only 2 of us, it;s not like we r going to have kids, kenapa elo keep on chasing omset and money
Jestine: pekerja kita sekarang banyak,they are our responsibility
Me: but their life hasnt changed, they are still pemulung
jestine: please be more supportive, i make money for you to spend
Me: i have more than enough on my own money, dont need yours

once i was humiliated....
we were in a business dinner...
the guest think i am some kind of jestine's assistant...
I blurted out: money can not buy happiness
The guest just laughing at me: those who said money can not buy happiness, definitely has no money
And they're all laughing at me, including jestine

Sampainya di rumah
me: jestine , you should have defended me...not humiliate me
Jestine: trey, be wise, customers are the king
Jestine: dont you know that?
Me: yeah...so they are more important than me now
jestine: i worked so hard to get into this level
jestine: and because someone was having a joke , i must destroy the whole dea
me: for so long , i never regretted my decision to choose jestine
but at that time.....it really hurts my feeling

I AM NO ANGEL !

i am getting tired and sick of this situation
Gua udah sibuk dengan kerjaan gua, but weekend gua tetap harus bantuin jestine, urusin cacing, dan compost
i have no sex, i have no attention
i dont get romance, gimana mau romance, kita masing masing udah sibuk dengan kerjaan masing masing
conversation is all about business, the right formula, ngurusin finance....

that day...gua bener bener bete sama Jestine
jestine: trey, elo tolong ke pabrik yah, check dengan heru mengenai batch 311
me: i need my own weekend ..jestine
jestine: please dong, gua mesti main golf sama si Mark Hayden...
jestine: gua mau lobby dia, untuk pasarin pupuk kita di overseas chain marketnya, , biar bisa go global
me: jestine, kebutuhan domestic aja, elo nggak bisa penuhin, kenapa mesti ekspor sih?
jestine: gua mau brand gua, go international
jestine: please trey...
jestine lalu memeluk gua.
jestine: elo nggak mau kan, gua fail after all this hardwork

akhirnya jestine main golf dikedaton
gua mesti ngurusin batch 311
saturday morning, ngurusin batch 311

gua sampai dipabrik kompos jestine
me: tolong panggilkan pak heru!
pak heru: pak, ada apa pak?
me: pak jestine, pesan, ada masalah untuk batch 311
me: saya minta di update

entah kenapa gua tiba tiba lihat si heru gua jadi pengen
hmm...tall, manly
pak heru: menurut pendapat saya, ada masalah dengan cacing tanahnya pak
pak heru: pak, sekalian ke lapangan pak, saya tunjukin
me: batch 311, setahu saya kan pupur organic harga murah kan
pak heru : bener pak, dan komposisi utamanya kertas koran, dan kotak kotak karton yang udah hancur
me: terus masalahnya gimana?
pak heru: setelah saya pelajari, menurut jurnal ilmiah yang ada, tinta berwarna itu toxic untuk cacing cacing tersebut, makanya produksi pupuk batch 311 mengalami kendala
sedangkan, untuk memilah milah koran mana ada tinta berwarna dan tidak ada, sangat memakan waktu.

Gua kok horny banget yah ngelihat si heru ini.
Gua melihat sekeliling pabrik, banyak cowok cowok yang lumayan oke, biarpun kerempeng, tetap six pack.
Semua tersenyum kepada ku: pagi, pak.
Me: pagi
( gua dalam hati, atau gua panggil aja satu, gua bayar 500 ribu, gua oralin, masak sih mereka menolak gua)

me: jadi bagusnya gimana nih pak heru?
pak heru: saya rasa, projek batch 311, nggak bisa dengan harga segini, prosesnya lama pak.
me: kalau begitu , nanti saya diskusikan dengan pak jestine
me: heru, kamu kalau ada masalah apa lagi, bisa konsultasikan dengan saya
pak heru: iya pak.
me: heru, kamu udah berkeluarga?
pak heru: udah pak, ini foto anak saya pak
( shit, imajinasi gua langsung pudar!!! melihat fotonya bersama istri dan anaknya)

karena kesepian..dan merasa kurang kasih sayang
gua mulai acting out...cari perhatian
at night....
gua bb jestine: dinner yuk
jestine bales bb gua: elo dinner sendiri dulu, gua lagi dinner sama si mark
ketika jestine pulang....
gua mulai cari gara-gara
me: i need sex
jestine: trey, gua capek banget...elo coli aja deh
me: jestine...i need sex...
jestine: elo maunya apa?
me: terserah..oral , anal ..up to you
jestine: yah udah ...cepat yah!
jestine mulai mengoral kontol gua....
jestine: kok belon cum?
me: gila loe yah..belon 5 menit udah cum? emang kayak elo
jestine: yah udah...cepatan
me: elo niat nggak sih?
jestine: dont make this into a big deal...i am very tired
me: elo tired apa? tired main golf ?
jestine: i dont want to argue..i am too tired..gua mau tidur...
akhirnya jestine berbaring di tempat tidur, tanpa memperdulikan perasaan ku yang lagi frustasi
Gua kesel banget....
kesel banget.....
me: i am going to sauna
jestine: bagus lah...so you dont have to bother me
me: people do change....now i realise...manusia bisa berubah
jestine: elo juga intropeksi dong...elo juga berubah
me: berubah gimana?
jestine:dari yang understanding..jadi demanding?
me: emagn gua nggak deserve love and romance?
jestine: grown up, kita udah pacaran almost 3 years, bukan cinta monyet lagi
jestine: be an adult....

gua hopeless banget...
sedih banget......

me: i am going to sauna
jestine: trey please....i am very tired to argue...
me: gua pengen merasakan to be loved
jestine: i love you....
me: where's the romance?
jestine: i work so hard...so you can have anything you want
me: what do i want?
me: i want romance
jestine: be realistic...kalau nggak ada uang, gimana sih bisa makan ditempat yang mahal
gimana bisa beli barang barang branded
me: gua beli pake uang gua sendiri yah
jestine: emang gua pernah melarang elo pake uang gua?
me: no...but the point is not money
jestine: look at us, rich and young...so many people want to be in our position
jestine: you should be grateful
me: but you dont have time for me!
jestine: you know i am very busy....
me: so what;s the point of having relationship?
jestine: trey..go to sleep...i will hug you
gua kesel banget....capek banget ....hambar banget rasanya
jestine: once we r rich, we can go anywhere...anywhere you want to go?
jestine: first class, banyan tree? four seasons...you tell me
me: i dont want all that....i just want more of your time
jestine : be patient....next month we r going to maldives..okay?

the thoughts of maldives made me happy...
gua jadinya rajin fitness, maklum lah...kepantai gitu loh...mesti six pack ahahahha
hmmm...gua rajin browsing browsing...
pilihan gua either four seasons or banyan tree...
hmm...after almost 3 years, this would be our first honeymoon....

but excitement turn into dissapointment
setiap gua tanya exact time...gua mau booking tiket and hotel
jestine, kagak bisa kasih definite time
and next month...udah mulai jadi next 2 month
and gua pikir pikir...gua mesti kasih ultimatum.... are we going or not?
seenaknya banget..janji janji palsu

BUT ...before gua kasih ultimatum....
Things happenned......
Alif telpon gua.....

ALif: trey, ada hal penting yang mau gua bicarain?
Gua udah bad feeling sih, pasti jestine ngadu yang nggak-nggak...
gua dalam hati, yah udahlah...mau putus putus deh...
I am sick of this anyway.....
punya pacar kayak nggak punya pacar....

me: okay, when?
alif: nanti malam, just the two of us....
me: di apartemen gua aja deh......
alif: hmm .........
alif: di rumah gua aja deh
me: yah udah deh di rumah kamu

Gua udah tahu sih, maksud pembicaraannya si alif...

siap pulang kantor , gua langsung ke tempat alif
gua penasaran banget...jestine ngadu apa aja , ke si alif

akhirnya...gua sampai di tempat...
alif : ngomong dikamar gua aja...
me: kenapa mesti ngomong dikamar elo?
alif: lebih private aja
me: so ? jestine cerita apa aja?
alif: hmm....i am going to make it easy for you
me: okay..to the point aja
alif: jestine is going to break up with you
me: i know it
me: why can he be man enough, just to say himself, nggak usah pake perantara
alif: the reason is because of me
me: nah...you are not the reason....dont blame yourself...
alif: is true?
me: kalau it;s make you happy, he choose you over me ...yah udah lah
me: but kalau it makes you guilty, that he choose you...dont be...coz you are not the reason
alif: the reason is me
me: emang deh elo, dari dulu pede banget...
alif: will you be sad?
me: may be...havent talked to him, jadinya belon bener bener sink in
alif: will you be sad then....
me: may be
alif: hmm will you hate me ?
me: hmm...i dont think so..coz i know for sure you are not the reason
alif: hmm....its me
me: kok yakin, did he say so?
alif: i am going to die, so i beg him to spend time with me
me: Oh my god....
(gua tiba tiba sedih, mata gua berkaca-kaca)
me: elo nggak usah buat buat alasan deh, kalau elo mau sama jestine, gua rela kok
alif: it;s true...i am dying...and before i die, gua pengen merasakan pacaran sama jestine...
me: oh no..is this true?
alif: gua rasa elo gila...lebih sedih gua dying daripada gua steal your bf...
me: hiks hiks...iya sedih aja...kalau elo steal my jestine, i can steal back
tapi kalau elo mati, gimana bangkitkan elo
alif: elo ada gila gilanya yah....
me:elo mati kenapa ? emagnnya elo kena penyakit apa? AIDS?
alif: ih elo ini ngomong asal aja yah....pusing gua jadinya
alif: gua mikirnya kita bakalan jambak jambakan , teriak teriakan..kok jadi gini sih?
me: AIDS yah?
alif : AIDS dari mana? gua nggak kaya elo yah..ratu sauna
me: jadinya kok elo sok tahu....mau mati
alif: gua kena lupus
me: kayaknya lupus nggak sampe mati deh
alif: males gua argue sama elo
me: terus...gua masih boleh contact sama jestine?
alif: nggak lah...dia kan pacar gua
me: kalau gua kesepian gimana?
alif: yah ke sauna lah
me: gua cinta yah sama si jestine....
alif: elo sabar lah...gua matinya nggak pake hitungan tahun kok
me: hmm hari ?
alif: ih elo yah....kok nggak bilang detik aja

me: kalo elo nggak mati mati ?
alif: everyone pasti mati
me: kalau matinya lama ....kayak 2 tahun?
alif: ngak selama itu lah
me: berapa lama?
alif: ih elo ini, kok nggak elo bunuh aja gua langsung?
me: ih elo ini, gua kan mesti tahu jangka waktunya?how long to wait
alif: OH my god
me: kalau gitu, elo mati yah mati aja, gua tetap pacaran sama jestine...
alif: masalahnya jestine udah nggak mau sama elo, sampe gua mati, from now on, dia jadi pacar dia...
me: elo bukan pacar dia lah, selingkuhan aja....
alif: ih elo ini, intinya dia nggak akan cari elo lagi?
me: ih elo ini, udah mau mati , sampe sebegitunya
alif: udah gua mati, he all yours
me: kalau ternyata, gua juga sekarat gimana?
alif: OH my god...kayaknya kalau ngomong sama elo, gua makin cepat deh matinya...
me: hmm yah udah lah....jestine is now all yours...
alif: hmmmm yakin?
me: mau gua nyanyiin?
me:everybody needs a little time away, i heard he say, from each other, even lovers need holiday, far away from each other...Hold me now...
Alif: stop stop....elo pikir ini bercandaan yah
me: nggak lagi...seriusan...gua beneran need holiday from jestine
Me: can i hug you, and say thank you
alif: kepala gua nyut nyutan, ngomong sama elo....
me: mau gua nyanyi...?

Alif: elo pasti pikir ini bercandaan?
me: iya lah,.....elo masih sehat walafiat gitu
alif: go home, and talk to jestine....
me : okay!
me: love you sis, and elo nggak akan mati lah....aku tak mau dudamu hahahahah
alif: dasar orang gila ! 

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sampe gua diapartement
gua lihat jestine udah packing packing
me: oh my GOD
gua scream: oh my god...that is the lamest excuse ever in the world
me: are you really going to dump me ?
jestine: i am sorry, i have no choice, alif is dying
me: oh my god.........jestine, please tell me truth
me: dont use that fucking excuse!!!
jestine: it's the truth
me: if you man enough, at least be honest , and tell me the fucking truth
gua histerissssssssss
me: tell me that you love him more than i am
me: tell me that elo udah nggak cinta gua lagi
me: i deserve honesty
jestine: the truth is i love you, but now alif is dying, he doesnt have much time
me: FUCK you
jestine: i love you trey, but we have all the time in the world
me: fuck you
jestine: if thing is easier, if i say i love alif more, so here you are....i love alif more
jestine: happy?
me: fuck you
me: elo berdosa banget........
me: beneran berdosa!!!
me: you asked me for chance....you asked me for kesempatan
me: now...elo yang dumped gua
jestine menangis histeris: trey, i have no choice
me: gua bertahan living with out sex....i didnt cheat...i didnt go to sauna
and for what???????????????????
me: you are evil.....the most evil person in the world
jestine: i love you trey, one day you will understand
me: fuck you
jestine: i need going, i love you always
me: anjing ..fuck you

gua melihat jestine , pergi membawa barang barangnya

gua langsung menelpon alif
me: alif, kenapa sih elo? why did you do this to me?
alif: hmm trey, elo jangan selfish lah, i am dying, gua cuma mungkin jadi pacar dia cuma 3 months, elo udah jadi pacar dia selama 3 tahun
alif: i never have boy friend, please trey, be kind to me
sebelon gua mati, let me find my happiness
me: elo sumpah , elo pasti mati
alif: elo besok ketemu dokter gua aja deh, kalau elo nggak percaya
me: hiks hiks hiks hiks...
me: alif elo jangan mati dong hiks hiks
alif: elo gimana sih , bentar mau gua mati, bentar nggak?
me: hiks hiks, i dont want you to die....
alif: udah deh....dont worry...soon i will die..you will have jestine again
me: kalau gua kesepian gimana?
me: can i call jestine?
alif: kalau kesepian call me ...dont call jestine
alif: jestine loves you, cuma this time, dont make thing more difficult for him
me : hiks hiks..kalau elo bohong ..nggak mati mati, elo gua kutuk yah
alif:ih elo ini...

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day1, day2, oh my god...
gua nggak tahan...
gua kesepian banget
i miss jestine...
2 hari kayak 3 abad

gua telpon alif
me: gua kangen jestine
alif: elo kesauna gih....
me: ih elo jahat yah !
alif: ke sauna dulu..tenangin diri....
me: kalau udah kesauna, gua masih kangen jestine gimana?
alif: elo kesauna dulu? nanti kalau masih kesepian. elo call aku lagi....

Duh akhirnya gua kesauna, udah malam malam
mata bengkak bengkak karena nangis....
aduh udah lama banget kagak ke sauna
hiks hiks

sampe ke sauna...
kok makin gelap yah sekarang.....
dulu orang orangnya itu itu aja,...sekarang kok nggak ada yang gua kenal yah

i am so lonely
mudah mudahan ada yang cakep....

aduh jackpot!!!
ada satu yang super cakep ....
hehehe kayaknya gua can get through today....
dia udah senyum senyum ke gua....
my lucky day...
gua senyum lagi....

gua pancing ke room aja
aduh cakep banget....
six pack, so young, muka nggak kalah deh sama jestine....
gua langsung buka aja, towel gua....
hmm ...dia masuk ke room
terus dia buka towelnya...
gua mulai mencium lehernya
dia lalu mencium gua

OH MY GOD...nafasnya nafas NAGA
MATi gua....
gua hampir oyong....
gua mesti menjauh dari mulutnya....
gila NAFASNYA ...NAFAS RAFLESIA ARNOLDI....
PLEASE PEOPLE...lain kali sebelon ke sauna, sikat gigi dulu yah, kumur kumur
bisa mati ..nggak nafas gua....

gua pegang kontolnya

Gila GEDE banget....
Duh nih anak, kok mau cium gua melulu....
gua langsung menuju kontolnya, gua oral aja...
dari pada ciuman sama dia

MAMPUS GUA
ATAS BAWAH SAMA SAMA BAU
GUa langsung mau muntah ....
PINGSAN gua...baunya amit amit

Gua tanpa basa basi: aduh kontol elo bau banget
me: elo cuci dulu yah
that guy: upps sorry, kamu tunggu disini yah, aku cuci nanti balik lagi
me: iya iya cepat yah
Gua dalam hati SO NOT my LUCKY DAY
GILA nafas bau, KeNti bau KEJU
mati deh....
WHAT HAPPENED TO ME ???????????
gua mendingan pulang deh
hiks hiks
SO SAD

PLEASE PEOPLE lain kali kalau mau have sex
SIKAT GIGI, kumur kumur ...
kontol di cuci bersih biar wangi..jangan ada sisa sisa keju yah !!!!

Akhirnya gua call alif lagi..
me: gua mau ketemuan sama jestine, i miss him
alif: udah kesauna?
me: udah
alif: and ?
me: NGAK beres, dapat yang NAFAS BAWANG, KENTI BAWANG juga, banyak dakinya
Alif ketawa
me: gua mau jestine
ALIF: hmm elo call deric gih
Me: hmmmmmmmm
Me: do you think it will be a great idea ?
alif: why not?
me: hmm gua udah dumped dia loh
alif: telpon sebagai temen kan kagak apa ?
me: hmm ...dulu dia mau temenan, gua juga udah nggak mau
alif: itu salah elo lah
me: jadi gimana? i want jestine lah kalau gitu
alif: duh elo ini, kalau gua mati, gua pasti jadi setan gentayangan
me: ih elo jangan ngomong setan setan lah, nanti malam gua jadi takut tidur sendiri, gua kerumah elo loh
alif: no no no, i will be your guardian angel
alif: udah call deric aja....
me: bilang apa?
alif: pura pura aja kepencet

me: hmm boleh juga yah ahhahahaa
alif: dasar orang gila
me: heheh oke dulu yah
alif: jangan call me lagi yah

akhirnya gua call deric
me: halo
deric: halo trey
me: halo deric, eh sorry, kok bisa kepencet nomor kamu
me: elo apa kabarnya ?
deric :fine and you ?
me: fine juga...
me: kapan kapan ketemuan yuk
deric: trey, actually i already have a boyfriend...
me: opps, sorry....nice talking to you
me: congratulation

Gua matiiin telpon
jantung gua copot
HIKS HIKS i am so sad...
ITS so not my lucky day

Gua call alif lagi
Me: alif, si deric udah ada boyfriend
alif: so what?
me: dia udah move on
alif: Udah Ke KUA, belon kan?
me: hiks hiks i am so sad now
alif: udah tidur dulu, minum xanax setengah butir aja
me: hiks hiks...alif...be happy with jestine okay, take care of him okay
alif: besok gua ketemuan sama elo okay...
me: take care alif, have nice sleep

IT;s such a sad day...
what happened to me ?
everything goes wrong.....
hiks hiks

i realised i dont love jestine
jestine had gone for few days, gua kangen ada orang di samping gua
gua sedih karena gua kesepian
tapi..to really miss jestine...like i miss deric...no i dont feel that
my heart is not aching for jestine
but still i am so lonely
udah terbiasa..ada orang untuk diajak bicara
udah terbiasa ..ada temen untuk makan
udah terbiasa...ada someone next to me dimalam hari, apa lagi kalau selesai nonton film film horror....

terpikir film horror...now if i am thinking about setan setan..i am alone now
so scary.....

should i drink xanax?
duh nanti jadi ketergantungan
should i come back to sauna? gila udah jam berapa

buka buka ipad...main angry birds
duh ketagihan...
jadinya nggak tidur tidur...
ampun deh !

gua kepikir deric
i hope he is happy
gua kepikiran jestine...
kasihan juga dia nanti..kalau si alif beneran meninggal
biarpun dia nggak mencintai alif...still ...losing your best friend
misalnya gua kehilangan Rini...aduh gua nggak bisa kebayang
duh tiba tiba gua nangis....

bb in rini...thanks for being my best friend...
Rini bb balik : Go to sleep...pasti lagi HBL, kalau nggak lagi menss yah
(HBL=haus belalai laki laki)
me: balas balik hhahahha ..iya nih...gimana dong?
Rini: TIDUR !!!
me: nite
Rini: Tidur!

to be continued....

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